The 33-year-old, from Kent, didn’t expect to have three children with husband John, 39, but said she fell in love with all three from the moment they found out. Throughout her pregnancy, Kirsty was very cautious, and when she began to notice vaginal bleeding, she feared she would miscarry. The doctors reassured them that everything was fine and that there were three healthy heartbeats. But sadly at 18 weeks, the scans showed some problems with the development of one of the babies that caused the baby to be gone.
As a result, Kirsty had to go through the remainder of her pregnancy knowing that one of her children passed away. Even though Kirsty has the perinatal team and midwives’ tremendous support, she has found comfort in sharing her journey on Instagram.
I seemed to become pregnant quite soon after learning I was expecting, Kirsty claimed. We went for an ultrasound earlier than planned since I was bleeding, which I thought was concerning. I was so afraid that we may miscarry, but our specialist congratulated us on having two heartbeats before asking, “Oh, what about a third beat?” I started crying, laughing, and my hands started shaking. I was so dehydrated that the nurse in the room had to get me some water weak.
From the time we discovered we were having triplets, I adored each child. I created mental images of their appearances, personalities, and most importantly holding them all in my arms. Kirsty always made fun of the fact that infants appeared as dots on the first ultrasound, so she chose the name Dotty for her third child. Dotty the rabbit was the choice I made to keep her secure because I sobbed a lot when I thought about her being alone. When they took Dotty away, she always carried it with her and it would always smell like me because I held it the night before the caesarean section.
I couldn’t stand the idea of her being by herself. Although many people suffer in quiet, Kirsty acknowledges that overcoming infant loss or miscarriage demands an underestimated strength. The initial weeks were awful. Because of my increased anxiousness and fear that something similar will happen to one of our survivors, I felt as though I couldn’t leave the house,’ Kirsty added. Fortunately, the other 2 infants are in excellent health. Another way the kids helped me cope with my loss. Even if the baby is an angel, each of those parents will always be that child’s parents because they are mom and dad.
